Friday, January 04, 2013

a night of freaky dreams

It's morning. I just got up. I slept poorly due to freaky dreams. This post might not be the most coherent. You have been warned.

Dreams..... symbols including a higher level of consciousness regarding old issues, being in the dark (unable to turn the light on) but having the light come on spontaneously after, and using curtains to shield myself from the (perceived) judgemental glares of.... strangers? Former friends? I'm not exactly sure. geographically speaking would be former friends but bore no resemblance to actual people I know, just people whose prying eyes I didn't want on me. Not physical threat as only barrier was a curtain, not a locked door. Next dream involved driving over crumbling cobblestone bridges to a boat filled with decay and dead bodies - died from respiratory illness. Next dream involved the Chinese taking over our government and economy as current socioeconomic conditions caused government to collapse both here and in the US.

I am quite certain that the first dream relates to the post I wrote yesterday, specifically in relationship to the development of my sexuality. But I'm not entirely sure just how it relates, or what it is that I'm supposed to have learned from it - I obviously sorted something out subconsciously because the lights came on. The dream took place in the house I grew up in in Spruce Grove, more or less. I have had many dreams about that house, mostly having to do with needing to lock doors and shut blinds and curtains to keep bad out. Occasionally fleeing the house has also been involved. Because of that I'm not entirely certain what part of my consciousness that house symbolizes.

I have very little to go on for the other two dreams either. The one with all the dead people and crossing a crumbling bridge likely represents my own rebirth as a new me which will take place when my baby is born. I guess that one's not rocket science. But a decaying ship full of dead people? Really? Why'd my subconscious have to pick such a completely creepy symbol to tell me something I already know?

And the last dream? It's strange because I don't think of our economy from one day to the next. My microeconomy with my husband is somehow flourishing even though he's going to school in another city and the baby's about to be born and our only income for the next 2 months is (kinda sorta - I don't really understand how it works when I also make self-employment income) my EI... somehow we actually have enough money in the bank between us to cover emergencies. And I'm not concerned particularly with any economy outside of our own because no matter what happens, something will happen, people will move forward. We won't all just suddenly starve and die off because humanity is better than that, and I'd like to think we wouldn't all turn into looters immediately either. Then again, I have at least a month's worth of food stashed in my basement, so why would I be the least bit concerned?  So... last dream.... I have nothing to offer in terms of interpretation.

I think that's everything I had to say. I feel like I'm missing things but oh well. and feel free to comment and offer thoughts or suggestions too. I'm all ears.

2 comments:

sistasage said...

ooo! perhaps the last dream symbolizes your "land" (body) being taken over by a foreign person - your baby! tie the second dream into the third, and you can't breathe, your former methods of moving from one thing to the next are seeming outdated and are falling apart; time to let a culture that has long had more respect for the family unit to take charge!

Jen said...

Oooh! Is that ever an interesting way of looking at things!!!!